18th december

well todays lesson didn't go to plan… Connor said in lesson all of a sudden that he didn't like our idea, which is fair enough as it didn't go very well when we done it in front of class. we sat around for about half an hour talking about a new idea for our scene, i thought really hard and came up with an idea about us being two people who robbed a shop and stashed the money in the underground but Connor didn't like it, so we kept thinking then Jay asked us for an idea and Connor said that he wanted to do an scene on his own, which kinda sucks because all the ideas i just made were for two people so when he said he wanted to do one on his own it sorter screwed all my ideas up. so i thought for about 5 minutes about an idea and i came up with this idea where i am an aspiring musician whose father does not believe i his son has the talent to make it and is going to throw away his life by dropping out of school just before he graduates. When i got home i kept thinking about a good idea I thought about somehow using the song 'BULLET' by hollywood undead as inspiration and use it in my scene. i want to lay down on a mattress whilst the song plays and have someone and Amanda doing standard household things around me as if it was fast forwarding through my life. i want my character to be a bit troubled not be able to accomplish anything in life. then i will get up and grab my guitar bag and go to walk out the door but get stopped by who ever plays my dad and he is going to ask ' where do you think you are going' i then want to have an argument about how he should know and how I've told him time after time that on whatever day say tuesdays that i have band practice and how he never listens to me, then he is going to say something about how if i spent half the time i spend on a worthless dream on my school work i would be someone. i will then storm out and go to the underground where i get on the train and die in the bomb. this is a working idea at the moment and i will try to map it out over the holidays.